| OOC Post: Heero's Farewell |
[05 Sep 2005|08:18pm] |
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As much as I hate to do it, I find that it is time to close down Heero's LiveJournal and return to my regular, mundane life. I can't do Heero justice anymore, and while I'm not sure I ever did, being Heero was at times frustrating, but most of the time a complete blast.
I'm sure many of you know this, but I was not the original ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) duonekophile. I shall leave it up to the person who originally started this LJ if she wants to reveal herself or not, but through a series of unfortunate circumstances, she was no longer able to continue. So duoneko went looking for a replacement, and chose me. And I've never regretted it since.
I came into the scene a little over two years ago, in August of 2003. Back then, we were still with the others -- Quatre, Wufei and Trowa -- and it was a lot of fun at first. But then, as most of you know, things fell apart with the others and Heero and Duo were largely ignored as characters. So duoneko and I decided to take the journals back to how they had been originally, just Heero and Duo on their own, living a normal life after the wars. And it was good.
I love my partner. Not quite as much as Heero loves Duo (for one, her husband might object, lol), but she's been my rock through everything in the past several years. I know I could not have pulled this off without her. So thank you, love, for giving me two years of much fun, laughter, snark and tears. *chu*
We had planned to keep the journals as just Heero and Duo at first. But then, we needed something to talk about, so we moved Wufei in with the boys. Then we thought how much fun it would be if we had a "live" Fei to liven things up a bit. We discussed who we would like to play him for *months* before finally realizing who would be the perfect person. And thus, my second partner-in-crime was born. She started out as a fangirl I barely knew and ended up becoming a good, wonderful friend. *hugs*
And of course, we needed a love interest for Fei, so Zechs was created. And what can I say about Zechs that I haven't already said? *chu* ;)
So... it's over. I'm really sorry, but I don't think I can keep this up anymore. My interest has been fading for some time. My interest in the characters may never fully go away, but I don't think it's fair to try and keep this journal going when I can't give it the attention I had been giving it.
To everyone who friended and had fun with Heero, I hope you enjoyed him as much as I did. Thank you for making it an enjoyable experience. I hope I lived up to your expectations, and if not, well... I hope you had fun anyway. -_-;;
It will be hard to leave Heero behind, but I think it's time to do so. I've made some wonderful friends in this journey... thank you for traveling with me.
~Caroline
(bishsticks)
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[13 Aug 2005|10:53pm] |
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Duo needs his own pair of furry underwear.
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[10 Aug 2005|11:42am] |
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Funny.
I don't feel another year older.
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[01 Aug 2005|03:09pm] |
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Duo and I both slept like the dead last night. We woke up refreshed and ready. I also woke up realizing that, while Relena's proposal is shocking to say the least, I found myself not entirely opposed to the idea. But this is a decision that will not come lightly.
To begin, Duo and I have decided simply to make two lists: pros and cons. It might sound clinical, but it'll give us a jumping off point to talking about this.
Duo spent part of last evening chatting to Hilde, Trowa and the baby on the 'phone last night. Everyone is well. And Duo felt better afterward, even more so when I dragged him away from the 'phone and up to bed.
Tonight is about him and me. I am taking off work an hour early to go home and cook. I have a couple of his favorite movies waiting for after dinner, along with something I picked up from the bakery called "Better Than Sex Cake."
I intend to test this claim.
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[30 Jul 2005|10:05pm] |
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I'm still... a little in shock over Relena's "proposal" she made this afternoon.
She wanted to meet me alone, so I went to her hotel room for lunch. It was good to see her again, but I was not prepared for what she wanted of me.
Relena has decided to give up her seat on the Senate next year. She wishes to pursue other... avenues of interest. And one of those avenues she needs me for.
She asked for my assistance in having a child.
It seems she had been thinking about becoming a mother for some time now, and spending time with Hilde and the baby has only reinforced her decision to have one. She explained the procedure to me -- I would have to travel to Earth to make my ... "donation." After that I could be as involved in this child's life as I wanted.
I was -- and pretty much still am -- in shock. She is giving me as much time as I need to give her a decision, but I'm not sure I am even capable of making one at this point.
I will need to discuss this with Duo. I've just told him about it as well, and he hasn't said much. I think it's surprised him as much as it did me.
I don't know what to do. Relena would make a wonderful mother, but I am not sure about myself as a father. I never envisioned children. But I do have to admit, there is some small part of me that is ... intrigued by this.
I need to talk this out with Duo. I don't even know where to begin.
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[28 Jul 2005|09:31am] |
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Relena called this morning. She's going to be on colony this weekend and wants to meet with me to discuss a new project she is interested in pursuing. She wouldn't give me any more details than that. Her Senate seat is up for re-election next year and I know she had voiced ideas of not running again. But she hadn't made any definite decisions. I wonder if this has something to do with that.
Guess we'll find out Saturday.
I suppose this means we'll have to clean the house...
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[19 Jul 2005|01:26pm] |
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To be honest, I'm getting a little tired of preprocessed frozen Italian dishes we've been eating lately.
I'm going to the store in a little while, but I'm not sure what I'm in the mood for. Help me out, here ladies.
Chicken or fish?
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[14 Jul 2005|01:49pm] |
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Oh the things you will do when it's pouring rain outside and business is slow.
( Tarot Card Quiz )
Hmm, I wonder if Duo's having a slow work day as well. *reaches for the phone*
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[10 Jul 2005|12:43pm] |
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It's after noon and Duo and I have just gotten out of bed... and sadly, we were just sleeping. I tihnk the events of the last few months finally caught up with us, as we both slept nearly 12 hours last night.
Sleep is good.
But now I want waffles.
*goes to poke Duo into getting up and making me some*
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[08 Jul 2005|09:54am] |
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Duo was the one who overslept this morning as last night we both rediscovered that I have a penis and know how to use it.
*grins and wanders wearily back to bed*
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[07 Jul 2005|09:23pm] |
I believe the new drugs may be working. Last night I slept like the dead for the first time in... well, a long time. I was sleeping so soundly this morning, Duo didn't have the heart to wake me and I was late for work. Brat.
And speaking of work, I may have to make a painful decision soon. A private developer wants to buy the block Reboot is located. They have made quite a good offer. My decision will be to relocate or close down for good. I have made a good business for myself, but is it really what I want to do for the rest of my life?
I have some time to decide. In the meantime I will be scouting other locations for the store. Jhan graduates from University in December and will be leaving to start a new life of his own on Earth with Althea. They were engaged last month. Charlotte would still be with me, but she said if I decided to close the store, she could spend more time with her grandchild. This will take some consideration.
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[04 Jul 2005|09:36pm] |
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I am still trying to get back into some normal routines. My doctor put me on a new medication, but we have to give it time to work. Fortunately, I am no longer passing out as soon as I take it.
The American Independence holiday is no longer an official holiday, but many businesses still close and families use it as an excuse to grill out. The majority of the L2 population has an American heritage, so the colony is putting on a plasma display tonight. Duo and I will be heading up to one of the observation decks in a few minutes to watch.
My thanks to everyone who has been concerned over me. I am grateful.
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[13 Jun 2005|09:54pm] |
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Duo is standing over me, making me post. Trying to get me "out of my funk," I believe he called it.
For his birthday yesterday, I took him to a local spa, one that provided deep tissue massages. He's been having pain in his lower back lately, and apparently, my efforts at working it out cause only cause him more pain. I think I press too hard.
We spent all day there, and he came home feeling much more relaxed. Even more so after I delayed taking my pill last night so we could truly celebrate.
We both slept relatively well last night for once.
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[12 Jun 2005|09:10pm] |
Forgive me for being quiet lately. I haven't felt much like being online since we got back from Earth. My doctor will be switching my meds this week, to see if they will help. Until then, I'll probably still be a hermit.
But I couldn't let this day go by without wishing Duo a happy birthday. I'm sorry I've been somewhat distant lately. I'm... trying. But I do love you and would be lost without you.
Happy birthday, love.
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[29 May 2005|09:05pm] |
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Duo...
It's hard to imagine that a year has passed since I married you. The only regret I have is that we didn't do it sooner. I know we had our reasons, but I am happier now than I ever have been, knowing that, when someone asks me who you are, I can say with pride, "That's my husband."
You've been with me through it all, the good times and the bad. You never give up on me, and for that, I thank you. It is the greatest gift you have ever given me - your loyalty, your life, your love.
If I were given a chance to live my life over, I wouldn't change a thing. You have made me who I am today, and I cannot express how thankful I am that you will be with me for all our tomorrows.
I love you, Duo.
Happy anniversary.
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[25 May 2005|09:18pm] |
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We are now in Paris. Aly is beautiful and Duo has hardly put her down (except when it was time to change her diaper, which is when he handed her off to me. Brat.)
I had my first therapy session on Monday. Part of my "homework," if you will, is to write about my experiences; however, as we were leaving so soon, I have not had a chance to do that yet. I shall try to write a little in the next few days, in between nappy duty.
Duo was practically bouncing in his seat the whole flight. He's still quite hyper. I may have to deploy drastic measures to get him to calm down long enough to sleep tonight.
Hn.
Mission accepted.
Of course, we'll have a problem getting away with it in Trowa and Hilde's small flat... gags and duct tape may have to be used. *evil grin*
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[22 May 2005|08:24pm] |
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It's odd. I had Chinese for breakfast this morning and I'm already craving more.
I'd never had Chinese for breakfast before. It may become habit.
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[19 May 2005|11:31am] |
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I have my first session with my new therapist on Monday. We leave for earth to visit Hilde, Trowa and Aly on Wednesday.
The pills I have been taking have been making my groggy, so Wufei suggested I spar with him in the mornings to see if I can get some of my stamina back. We chose light boxing for our first session this morning. He wiped the floor with me, but I was expecting it. My physical strength has left me since I started on this medication, but it was to be expected. Fei agreed to teach me some kata exercises tomorrow, followed by a short jog around the trianing complex. Duo is tagging along to make sure I don't overdo it. (I think he just wants to look at my ass in my old spandex.)
In just over a week, we will have been married a year. So much has happened in that year. And I thank whatever gods are out there that he has been by my side the entire time.
I need a nap.
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[12 May 2005|10:04pm] |
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Wufei has informed me that, depending on the emphasis and dialect, "duò" in Chinese means "lazy."
*looks over at my husband lying on the couch, one leg and one arm dangling off the edge, staring mindlessly at the television*
Seems fitting, in a way.
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[11 May 2005|09:01pm] |
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I had my appointment with the doctor yesterday. There were some... irregularities in my sleep patterns, increased heart rate and slightly elevated blood pressure, as if I were having nightmares though I didn't cry out at all. I had a feeling he'd recommend "therapy" but I was hoping my sleeplessness was just some kind of chemical imbalance, an easy fix. He's made a referral for me, citing post traumatic stress disorder. I don't understand how it could be PTSD. I... dealt with that after the wars. Duo helped me through it.
But, he said the only way I would get any rest was to try to work through whatever it is that is disturbing me, unless I wanted to stay on those pills, which I have to keep taking for at least another month.
Duo wasn't happy with that either, so has made me schedule in some "snuggle time" with him before I take the pill.
...and I'm late for that, so have a pleasant evening, everyone.
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